Again, it’s been a while. I could say that I’ve been too busy to update… That would be partially true, I suppose.
Honestly? I’ve been too depressed to make the time to update.
Marching practice for graduation starts tomorrow, and I’m going to (continue to) try to get my shit together.
I’ve been letting my depression get the better of me for far too long. Yes, my antidepressants don’t seem to be all-that effective anymore, but that’s not an excuse. Or at least I’m not letting it be an excuse anymore. I’m going to get to bed at a decent hour, I’m going to actually eat when I’m hungry. I’m going to throw out all of the crap I keep just because it has sentimental value. I’m going to stop focusing on everyone else. I’m going to wake up in the morning instead of hitting the snooze button five trillion times.
I miss me. The old me. The me who laughed more than she cried. The me who knew where her life was going, what she wanted, and how she was going to get it. It’s time to find her again.
Title from “Sound of Madness” by Shinedown
